Monday, 29 January 2018

Tromsø, where dreams come true

My  love for Northern Lights brought me to Tromsø ..

There is something magical about the Northern Lights, it is something that looks like from another world...


Here are some of the pictures that I took during my trip



 I was lucky enough to see the Northern Lights on my second day in the city ! I was amazed and I could not stop starring in the sky..

The view is spectacular !! I could not believe that I was there in this beautiful scenery watching the northern lights !


It is an excellent feeling when something exceeds your expectations and this happened in this city !


















In this place I did not find only the northern lights but I found myself.. I felt again part of this world and I did things that I wouldn't even imagine myself doing..

It is been almost a month since this amazing trip that I had and I can not take out from my mind this place !!

Place and people ! I felt like I have been always living in this place !!

Everyone was calling me crazy that I was going on Christmas alone to one of the northernmost cities in the world but I did not felt alone at any moment.. I guess I am feeling more alone when I am surrounded with people that can not understand me.


Thursday, 7 December 2017

Unexplainable things that happen

There are things in my life that i cant explain..

Things that happen in a blink of an eye and then i am just there questioning myself if what i saw was really there..

In the past i would just ignore those signs and keep on going but lately i am seeing it more and more often...

Unexplainable things that happen in the middle of my ordinary life to remind me that there is something out there.

Something that we can not explain..

Something more..

Wednesday, 29 November 2017

Goodbye

I dont know what to say. My words feel empty as empty as i am feeling now.. my head is full of thoughts that i can not put in an order... its mostly about the question why.. its mostly about if I could change something..

I feel every inch of my body when i am thinking about you..

I wont forget that i was holding your hand before you left and when I woke up you were not there...

You lived your life to the fullest and you still had all your life ahead of you.

When i asked you to come and visit me you came.. i know you were with me .. i felt it.. call me crazy but I know that you ve holded my hand for goodbye...

I love you and i will always love you..

My heart will always be with you..

I know you are in better place now and we will meet again..

Goodbye..

Tuesday, 18 October 2016

Miss Grunge






I've just came back home from work and I felt so tired that I wanted to lay down and do absolutely nothing.. It is been a while since I did something creative. I missed this part of me actually, that part that can stay up till late and write random stuff, think about stuff.... Paint, draw try something new , get excited about something in my life and do something about this excitement. 



Most of all I miss to feel something even if its sadness , anger , love, passion, hate ... 



What I hate the most is this emptiness......


Wednesday, 12 October 2016

Wonderland

Does a place like Wonderland exist?..

Some places bring you a feeling of 'wonderland', once you step in, you step into a different world far away from the real world..

Reality can kill you inside and you do need a place to escape.. Everyone needs a place called wonderland to escape reality for a while..

Wonderland is a feeling.. Any place  can be Wonderland .. What is needed the most is the state of mind and wonderland is going to the there waiting for you..



Saturday, 7 May 2016

Are you honest with yourself ?

It is been a while since I haven't been honest with myself. Its amazing how you can be everyday with yourself and see your reflection and still lie to yourself. I will never understand why and how we have to lie to our own self.

I still can smell the smell of cigarettes at my hair and have this bitter taste from the alcohol that I drunk yesterday night. My thoughts are chaotic from my hungover but that's the time for me to be honest with myself and think of things that I've been avoiding for so long. Its time for me to stay in bed the all day and write random things. Write down the feelings that I cannot translate in my head.


Some of those thoughts are hurting me because are about broken dreams.. Others are the worries that I have about my life in general. I am sure everyone is worrying about something we are all humans and we always think about stuff.. Worry and forget to to live the moment and be thankful for everything you have.

I still remember that all the things that I've achieved until today used to be dreams and hopes.. Now I should be proud of myself for what I've done and be thankful for all those people I have in my life. I was never more complete in my life than now.

I want all these positive thoughts to conquer my mind and once again lie to myself that I am complete but today I can't. Its is not the day for that, today I am honest and i see how incomplete I am and how many things I am missing in my life.

Today I am going to think of that missing part from my life and let nostalgia win.

Have a good night

Thursday, 21 April 2016

How to settle down after all these years ?

I would not believe a year ago how much my life is going to change within a year. Every single thing has changed and I am here a year after trying to realize all those changes .

I am about to take another step in my life. I am about to settle down in a place for a year. It is strange for me because for the first time it doesn't feels like a 'cage' but this is what I want actually. I need to settle down a bit and have a place that I am going to call home. !

It is not about being an adult or grow older, it is all about taking another step in your life. A step which hopefully will bring you closer to your goals that you have in your life. Or will make you realize your goals, life is a wonderful game that you should play and if you give up you will never find out how far you would go.

It is all about chances, luck and patience. Every start they say its a hard one but I wouldn't agree on that since challenges are what makes me feel alive and good with myself. Every day routine on something that I do not like, that is whats scares me and it is hard for me. But this time I am not afraid of having a routine in my life, a routine that I will fill with what I wanna do.

Scotland

When I am looking back all these years that I've spend on studying, travelling and making new friends are a huge part of my life but it is not everything what I wanted from my life. Having a life based on travelling will never help you to settle down and will not let you to keep some people in your life even though they were a huge part of your life. Travelling will always be a part of my life but I will have a place that I will be able to call home, my home !

I used to have thoughts of just leaving everything behind and travel without destination and all those thoughts seemed amazing in my mind but having people that you care about around you and doing what you want to do and meanwhile travel to meet friends, that is what I wanna do in the end !

I am amazed and I see how much strength it needs to leave everything behind and leave without a destination and I am more amazed with the people that are doing it !! Travelling must mean everything for them !!

I am not saying that I will live the rest of my life here in that city, but what I am saying is that it is the first time that I am going to settle down and try to follow my dreams !